please forgive me, if i act a little strange
December 8th, 2003 byThere are various ranges of erring, a large storage arena that is occupied with types of torture devices that would please any oppressive tyrant. Especially, if that tyrant be you.
If your mistake is one of ignorance, forgiveness is easy to swallow.
If your mistake is one of stupidity, forgiveness is easy to accept.
If your mistake is one of temporary insanity, then and even then, forgiveness can be sent overnight, in a little brown box, barcodes paneling one side, all bubble wrapped inside with a receipt that says ‘Thank you for seeking mercy with God! Enclosed is your customized, naturally tailored forgiveness pill. Drink with a nice cold glass of milk and don’t forget to brush your teeth before bed. Remember, everybody hurts sometimes”.
But if your mistake was made in a conscious state of mind, when you understood the situation, when you knew dammit knew what you were doing then why please please tell me why why did you do it…
If your mistake is because you chose to be weak, to be in denial, to not want to face your problems, then I feel sorry for you. Redemption is yours, after you’ve been given a full conscience upgrade, and a room with a giant mirror opposite a hard wooden chair.
Have a seat and make yourself at home.
It’s not easy to grow. It’s so not easy.
December 8th, 2003 at 3:53 am
stand by truth. always. living falsely doesn’t hide you from yourself. never. pretty drastic. but it’s when you try to implement it is when you see true strength. in yourself. and others to a point.
December 8th, 2003 at 4:11 am
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Right yes, can I have one of those pills?
And I give up on not being stupid. The best I can be is humble enough to ask God and those I offend to forgive me later.
Maybe some day. I’m working on it.
December 8th, 2003 at 10:38 am
…to me, the important thing is that you (the general “you”) are even TRYing to change, that you recognize your mistakes and are trying to move away from that. doesn’t that count for something?
the hard chair in front of the giant mirror… every now and then, we all should spend some time in that uncomfortable position. to keep ourselves grounded, humble, to seek forgiveness.
December 8th, 2003 at 7:36 pm
I need some of those forgiveness pills.
December 8th, 2003 at 11:15 pm
“But if your mistake was made in a conscious state of mind, when you understood the situation, when you knew dammit knew what you were doing then why please please tell me why why did you do it…”
maybe because you (as in that person) stopped caring…
December 9th, 2003 at 12:13 am
“blame it upon a rush of the blood to the head”
“please forgive me, if i act a little strange”
how can you tell we’re all stressed out here. Yasmine stopped blogging, brotha Waleed just put those notables up, and I just got an email from a classmate who I asked for some info on the exam saying ,”Sorry I got nothing. and I mean Nothing.”
I need some strength. Ya Allah, help us!
December 9th, 2003 at 1:03 am
Yo, hold up, just to set the record straight here, I did NOT stop blogging. I’m just trying to take a short break from the online world, and obviously it’s not working real well at the moment. AIM is the devil, and weblogs are much, much too distracting. Maybe I should just throw my computer out the window.
,”Sorry I got nothing. and I mean Nothing.” haha talk about stress, man. Much strength to you, Shaheen, and to you all.
Anyway, since I seem to be breaking my no-commenting-this-week rule anyway…
Okay, am I allowed to just second Anjum’s comments on every single post? Seriously.
Also, random thought: Denial can be difficult to give up. But I’ve learned that, if nothing else, it’s hard to lie to oneself.
December 9th, 2003 at 4:27 am
Chai: The truth, your own self even, is not always easy to stand by. Perhaps it is this generation alone that has it so tough, perhaps it isn’t. All I know is how I live my life.
Owl: In the end, humility to God wins out, regardless. Please Allah and Allah will make others pleased with you, nay?
Anju: Self-recognition. Can you really say you realize your mistakes and move from them so quickly, so easily, so efficiently? Not all of us be as thee.
Adnan: No, sometimes, people care yet still make conscious mistakes. How? There in lies the human factor, the human contradiction.
Completely human.
Shaheen: What notables? May Allah accept your duas.
And Yasmine: If you had to break your no-commenting-rule, what an honor! It is broken here, on these grounds, on this land. To live in denial, in lies wrapped around your self, is a filthy filthy place to live, that weakens and destroys you. Some escape, not all.
December 9th, 2003 at 12:51 pm
“Not all of us be as thee.” My mistakes are just like anyone else’s … some are minor, but some many are haunting, agonizing, unbearable reminders.. but even with these, we have to have some hope for forgiveness, don’t we? otherwise we’d be reduced to puddles of regret, unable to take any steps forward because we’re constantly looking backward…
oh, and for Yasmine’s seconding my comments.. it’d be an honor, but damn girl, you’re making me blush! =)
December 9th, 2003 at 2:30 pm
everyone likes to think they have it the worst. was it you who said it’s the human condition? everyone likes to think they are too busy. everyone likes to think that. i speak for everyone.
December 9th, 2003 at 7:09 pm
Man, I came here after an exam to RELAX and I can’t even understand anyone’s comments!! hahhahaha i’m going insane. Insannne in the membraaanne. (Deep voice) Insane in the BRAIN!
sorry.
so sorry.
but yes, even in the worst of conditions we should say Alhamdullilah because we all know others got it worse or to that person’s capacity, and ultimately, Allah swt is our Protector, Knower of all things, and the Most Just. So… alhamdullilah, i’m still alright. InshaALlah all of you guys are as well.
Take good care of yerselves now ya HEar?!
December 9th, 2003 at 7:15 pm
remember, things get worse before they get even worse.
December 9th, 2003 at 9:35 pm
i spent a year and a bit asking that … why why oh god in heaven why.
maybe i got over the melodrama, or maybe the tragedy ended, but i dont ask that very often anymore.
or maybe i realised that everyone;s got their own agendas, and everyones trying to get by, one day at a time.
so we make sacrifices, concessions … maybe some happiness here cancels out the pain over here … maybe if i hurt you now, but love you extra hard later, you’ll forgive and forget, or forget, or forgive.
maybe if i survive this one day, i’ll do better tomorrow.
so forgive me my mistakes today. tomorrow ill try again.
December 9th, 2003 at 9:37 pm
“if i hurt you now, but love you extra hard later, you’ll forgive and forget, or forget, or forgive.
maybe if i survive this one day, i’ll do better tomorrow.
so forgive me my mistakes today. tomorrow ill try again.”
Amen.
December 10th, 2003 at 12:57 am
why wait till tomorrow? how’s about now?
December 10th, 2003 at 10:09 pm
cuz now i have to study
December 11th, 2003 at 2:23 am
‘growing up is so not easy’…
oh, for the days of pre-school…