Baby I’m afraid of you
October 19th, 2003 byDespair. The clutches of a weak man.
Hopelessness. The ropes of a man finished.
Depression. The anchors of a spiritless man.
Guilt self induced. The skin covered rash of a mad man.
Apathy. The suicide of a sane mind.
Thinking no more. The portrait of a sad man.
Jaded. The reflection of a faded man.
Flashback:
I didn’t understand immediately. He tells me that Islam says, to ensure you’re not a hypocrite, you must make sure you’re not a hypocrite. I sat there puzzled, outside his office in the hallway trying to make sense of this. The air breathed cool, the grey walls patient, sound itself molding to encourage me. Nobody noticed me on the bench in the hall, doing nothing but breathing slowly, still, eyes darting slowly, as a mathematician inside analyzed this proof indestructable. The dots slowly appeared, the lines constructed in bits and pieces, the base stablilized…
Return.
Hypocrisy. The hissing forked tongue of a man cursing his own soul.
October 19th, 2003 at 12:54 pm
Seeing as how neither Yazzie nor Chai came up with a cheer, here’s mine:
Rah Rah Sis Boom Bah
Yaaaaaaaaaaaay Waleed!
*crowd goes wild*
Now go do your work.
October 19th, 2003 at 1:16 pm
where’s dr. karl? you need to go study.
October 19th, 2003 at 7:28 pm
Assaamu Alaykum,
Interesting post.
I often find myself questions my own actions, doubting myself and wondering if I have tasted hypocrisy.
Very unsettling.
I will definately be thinking about this line:-
“Jaded. The reflection of a faded man”
I hope your project is going well inshaAllah
Masalama
October 19th, 2003 at 9:40 pm
that. is that original?
October 19th, 2003 at 11:16 pm
Faiza: thanks. =) Good to know atleast some people care enough. hehe.
Yaser: yes, I have work to do. Lots. But ofcourse.
Jaded: jazakala khair. So many ways to be down, so many things it does. *shrug*
And yes Chai. I wrote that myself. Why?
October 20th, 2003 at 1:00 am
show me a person who’s not a hypocrite and I’ll show you a liar…
my point is that nobody is perfect… how can one not be a hypocrite in all matters of life?
surely we’re all hypocrites in one regard or another…
tree huggers might due to lazyness not recycle a few times… or even more :/… hypocrite!
there are levels to it I suppose… and hopefully we don’t do something majorly wrong…
but to expect perfection is folly, and to not attempt it is defeat
October 20th, 2003 at 1:42 am
because the first part, i dig it.
October 20th, 2003 at 3:29 am
Very thought-provoking, Waleed. Masha’Allah.
I think Adnan’s got a point though…we’re all hypocrites, to some extent or another. The point is acknowledging it, and checking ourselves constantly so that we don’t repeat the same mistakes over and over. But there are always new mistakes, yes. It’s a tough circle.
By the way, good cheer, Faiza. *whew*
October 20th, 2003 at 8:59 am
It’s true Adnan. That is part of our inherrent nature, not that we’re hypocrites, rather that we make mistakes and in our mistakes seems to lie our hypocrisy.
But a hypocrite by definition is one who preaches A, and purposefully practices everything but A.
That is not the same as erring (which you also agree with, naturally by stating there are different levels, etc)
But tell me, why is it not possible to find an honest man? Why is it not possible to be truthful always? What makes it impossible (from my understanding of what you’re saying) to not be a liar then?
October 20th, 2003 at 9:34 am
What is it Al Franken said….Lies and the Lying Liars who tell them…are we all not liars, if not to ourselves then certainly to others but first to ourselves…we live in a world that is not real…we lie how we are doing “fine” about our relationships with people….about our sprirtuality…how can we not given our condition of humaness and imagination…want and desire…sometimes, we even lie to our professors about the love of a class, the difficulty of an assignment or the incompleteness of a task…but in the grand scheme of life on this planet does lying make us a hyprocrite or just a human?
October 20th, 2003 at 11:34 am
I agree with Dr.Karl (hello!) to an extent. Having some hypocritical tendencies (we all do) doesn’t doom us to be 100% hyporcrites. That’s a dangerous way of thinking, because then you consider yourself a lost cause, beyond spiritual repair anyway just you’re nothing but a darn hypocrite. Know what I’m saying?
October 20th, 2003 at 11:35 am
In the future, could someone remind me to run spellcheck BEFORE I post? Thank you.
October 20th, 2003 at 1:08 pm
Abez. run spellcheck.
There you go.
We are liars, we are fools, and we are generally lost.
Denial aint just a river in Egypt. No sir.
October 20th, 2003 at 3:20 pm
where is it then? Brazil?
October 20th, 2003 at 5:10 pm
Not everybody has hypocritical tendencies. Maybe we should give other people (and ourselves) a little more credit.
October 20th, 2003 at 5:25 pm
tough call, faiza.
hard to give myself that much credit sometimes, that much i know.
October 20th, 2003 at 8:41 pm
who are we to judge ourselves? :p
October 20th, 2003 at 9:14 pm
i 2nd that. i believe it depends on our intentions though. if it’s your intention to behave a certain way and think another way, that’s maybe crossing into hypocrisy. but if your intentions are good, then maybe you’re just on your way to improvement and it may seem hypocritcal to another person what your ideas are at a time contradict yourself. seeing that they change within seconds.
October 21st, 2003 at 4:20 pm
….the road to hell is paved with good intentions…are we all static creatures or do we change over time…forcing us to cross ourselves and re-think ideas we once held as “untouchable.”
October 21st, 2003 at 11:18 pm
We have to change over time Doc. If we don’t, then we’re doomed as individuals, nay?
We change from one grade to another as we grow up, from one summer to the next. The worry is when you stop changing, when you stop moving.
It’s a paranoic way of living perhaps but the most efficient, to always checking up on your untouchable ideas then.